Went to an anniversary meeting tonight. Good speakers and it was great to listen and find identity with them.<\/p>\n
But what got me was to run into a couple of people I have known for a long time, who had a hard time getting sober. They were sober tonight and had been for a while. One of them talked to me about how difficult a time it was for him to get his ego down to size, so that he could grab hold of what this program offered. I told him what Dr. Bob had said, that the ego dies hard. And he enthusiastically nodded his head and said, isn’t that the truth.<\/p>\n
And there it is. My biggest problem. Getting out of my way. If anything gives me difficulties in this sober way of life, it’s me. I ask for help with that everyday. I think I’m finally getting better with it, but that’s my thinking. I hope I am.<\/p>\n
Ego deflation in depth. I remember my sponsor and a lot of old timers used to puncture that balloon I call my ego. They deflated me a lot in my early years in the program. And the truth was I became very grateful that they did. They would cut me down to size in a few words. It helped to get me out of my own way, so that I could hear what they were trying to help me to learn about this way of life.<\/p>\n
A power greater than myself. I think about that often. It’s what got me sober. It’s what keeps me sober. Being right size is what I need. I need to remember I’m not in charge. That I have to remember how much I depend on my higher power. I still say those words from the BB, of myself I am nothing, my Father doth the works. For years I would say that often during the day. And I often do today. To back off and let God be God and Ned be Ned.<\/p>\n
Tonight was a great night for me. It reminded me of what sobriety is all about. Identifying with drunks just like myself, who, by the grace of their higher powers are sober also. I need that and the examples of their humility. I am so grateful for AA and my sobriety.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Went to an anniversary meeting tonight. Good speakers and it was great to listen and find identity with them. But what got me was to run into a couple of people I have known for a long time, who had a hard time getting sober. They were sober tonight and had been for a while. … <\/p>\n