There are times in this life of mine, when I have to go back and take a quick inventory. Last night’s thoughts brought this about today. In fact, when I was called on in the meeting this morning, I had to make a statement, which might have brought about a few laughs.<\/p>\n
We were supposed to be talking about the Tenth and Eleventh Steps today. And when they called on me all I said was that I was an alcoholic and not a saint. That was all I said. The reason I was thinking this way was because of what I wrote last night. It was my thoughts on what I did to practice contemplation.
\nI read that statement this morning and it made me stop and back off.<\/p>\n
I could be wrong in my thinking, but I didn’t want anyone to be thinking I was a spiritual person. In fact, whenever I usually write or talk, I often say that I’m a human being and not a saint. That I’m the kind of alcoholic, who trips up and stumbles by falling back into my old faults and defects. I often state what I read in the BB about us being humans and not saints and subject to such trip ups. My sponsor so often brought this point up with me and told me that I had to be able to stop and pick myself up and dust myself off and to keep on keeping on, without picking up a drink of alcohol.<\/p>\n
Anyway I didn’t feel that I could give any thoughts or advice on practicing these Steps in a “healthy” way, that some seemed to be seeking. I’m just imperfect and nothing more. I learned that from not just my sponsor, but a lot of those old timers, who were practicing this program and staying sober a day at a time.<\/p>\n
I felt relieved in what I did say. I have to go back and think, when I’m asked to talk about what it is I do in here to stay sober. I know that when I came in my thinking was complicated. I was told to back off and get down to trying to stay simple in how I was working this program. Over time in here I have found myself getting into trouble, when I was thinking I was doing things my way. I finally began to stop and follow the directions I got from my sponsor and those old timers. That’s when I got the relief and blessings I needed. And I’m very grateful.<\/p>\n
My basic reason for being here is to stay sober. I could never have done this, I know, if I hadn’t entered into a spiritual way of life. The Second Step introduced me to this. My Higher Power’s will for me, I found out, was putting this program into action. Achieving a spiritual awakening and a restoration to sanity. And then, in spite of my human stumbling, doing what I need to live a spiritual way of life. Trying, with whatever my ability is, to do what I need to in order not to drink a day at a time.<\/p>\n
I know I am grateful for all I have been given. It really is a miracle for me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
There are times in this life of mine, when I have to go back and take a quick inventory. Last night’s thoughts brought this about today. In fact, when I was called on in the meeting this morning, I had to make a statement, which might have brought about a few laughs. We were supposed … <\/p>\n