What is it I need to do? I’m here, I know, to stay sober a day at a time. That is what is so important for this alcoholic. However, I do know that there are other things I need to do. And, of course, the first is to do the will of my Higher Power.<\/p>\n
That all began when I began to learn that I had to change. I had to stop thinking I knew what it is I needed to do. I really didn’t. So, I had to start learning what staying sober is and how to do it. I had to begin to practice working these Twelve Steps in here. I had to study the Big Book and the Twelve and Twelve, and to listen to my old sponsor and those old timers, who could teach me what it was that I needed to do to stay sober…a day at a time. Not easy, but do-able.<\/p>\n
And then I had to begin to learn what it is of my Higher Power’s will for me that I had to learn and do. Part of that was going to meetings everyday and listen to what these long term alcoholics do and what it is I need to do. And I learned that what I was so freely given is what I need to give to those who need it. New people and those who might trip and stumble. And part of all that is in the literature in here, and the practice of the old timers.<\/p>\n
That’s why I have to learn how to step back and let go and begin to practice humility in here. I have to learn that I am not in charge of changing others. Helping? Yes. But not in charge. I had to begin to learn the Serenity Prayer…the things I cannot change. And that is other people. I can help, but I’m not in charge. I can do service for others and then let go. I can only change me…with the help of my Higher Power and old timers in here.<\/p>\n
This what I needed to stop and think about today. I had to think about what I am suppose to do a day at a time in here. I’m not here to project my mind into tomorrow. Just today. Nor am I to go back into the past and get caught up in negative emotions about things which happened to me. I know I need to attend meetings, which will help me to continue to do my Higher Power’s will for me, plus how I need to learn from others like myself what it is I need to do a day at a time.<\/p>\n
None of this is always easy. Time takes time. And paying attention also takes time. Like the BB and the program tells us, we are not saints. We can intend to stay sober and do our Higher Power’s will for us, but we are still human alcoholics, and can find our mind’s wandering off from time to time, and we can stumble, fumble, and tumble. I know I need to learn to pick myself up and ask my Higher Power for help, as well as a sponsor or old timer. And I know that I can talk to others, like myself, who have also tumbled.<\/p>\n
Anyway, I had to take the time to think about this. And I need to be grateful and thank my Higher Power, and be grateful to others for what it is I have been given. I am sober a day at a time, but I’m also free and happy. At peace, and open to so many good things I have taken in from day to day.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
What is it I need to do? I’m here, I know, to stay sober a day at a time. That is what is so important for this alcoholic. However, I do know that there are other things I need to do. And, of course, the first is to do the will of my Higher Power. … <\/p>\n