Today I felt not only in contact with others, but even “rewarded”. I couldn’t help but feel connected to some of the members at our meeting. And then in conversations after wards.
I guess what I was thinking from early on today was the Eleventh Step. At least attempting to practice it and think of the prayers running through my head.
What was really going through my mind was spirituality. Growing along spiritual lines. Not suddenly, but gradually over time. That’s been my experience and I am grateful for whatever it is that I have in my life today.
I was thinking that in terms of what it is we need to do in here. Staying sober a day at a time of course. And part of that is to work with others, like in the Twelfth Step and at meetings. Carrying the message and reaching out to others, who want or need help. I always think that when I am doing this, my mind is really not on me. But somehow after wards I strangely feel rewarded. Don’t always understand, but am grateful.
And, of course, that is part of what I need to do, to be part of this great program, which not only saved my life and gave me sobriety, which I so desperately I needed, but to do what is necessary to help keep this program going. Not just for me, but everyone, who needs it. And that’s to participate in these meetings, and to practice, not just the Steps, but the Traditions. The unity of purpose. Never want to forget that.
Anyway, just thinking about not only my sobriety, but, like I said, this program. To be part of it. Or, as the Ninth Step in the BB states, the spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it. And that’s what I try to do, even stumbling and fumbling, as I often am. But it’s my commitment and need, if I want to continue to stay sober.
Just thinking and being grateful for all I have been given in here. Thanks.