Talked to a lot of people today. Kind of in private with each one. But it did remind me of putting this program into action in my life. Part of that was being honest. Talking to a sponsor or others and let them know what’s going on. And then to listen and try to follow what they tell us.
A couple I told to get sponsors. Not friends, but people who have a length of sobriety and know this program from experience. I learned over time that when we ask people we know and our close to, that they hesitate and often don’t tell us the truth, because they don’t want to hurt our feelings. Need to talk to somebody, who can be objective and tell us the truth. I can only hope they listened.
And then there were a few, who were having trouble with their emotions and their thinking. Not easy. Took time with each. Hopefully I was helpful. I can only hope. I know that I can’t change anyone on my own. Serenity Prayer. However the practice of sharing like others have with me over my time in here, is a blessing for this alcoholic. Amazing how it can help me to feel helped myself.
I often come to realize on days like this what it tells us that this is a spiritual program. We have to learn to practice spirituality, even though we’re not saints and just humans. Still have our thoughts, our emotions, and, of course a spiritual life to deal with. I often have to look at this and come into reality. How imperfect I really am. I often go back and remember how my sponsor would help me get through things, which, like those I talked to, often tripped me up. He would tell me how to pick myself up and keep on keeping on.
I needed to stop and think about this. How it helped me. Part of that Twelfth Step. But really about growing along spiritual lines, even though I don’t always feel that way. Or sometimes think that way. That’s when I have to stop and thank my Higher Power, and back off and accept what I have been given in here. Amazing.
Anyway I know that yesterday is gone, and tomorrow is not here yet. I only have today. And I need to stay sober this day. I hope and pray that I continue to remember this. And I need to remember I can’t do this by myself. I’m like every alcoholic in here. I have to have the support coming from people like myself. And then do what they have done for me. Freely giving what was freely given to me. Thanks.