Today someone wanted to talk about fear and faith. Interesting, because we were also going to be talking about sponsorship. And that led me to think about honesty.
Fear always leads me back to what fear turns into after a short time. And that’s anger. Anger relieves the fear. But then anger can turn into resentments and, like the BB points out, this can lead to drinking again and death. I have witnessed this enough times to help me to turn back and change my feelings.
Like I was always told by my sponsor and others, I have to place my mind over the emotions within me. I know that my old sponsor helped me to take care of this by giving me the opportunity to grow along spiritual lines. He did that by getting me to study the Second Step in the BB. In there I learned to grow in faith in a Higher Power and this program. Either that or die and alcoholic death. I sure didn’t want that.
One of the things, which helped me to grow in faith in here, was the virtue of hope, which I received just before I came into this program. I still go back to both of these, hope and faith. I learned how to do that through my old sponsor. I could witness his way of life and especially humility. His wife was the same way.
One of the things, which came from all of this, was my being able to stay sober a day at a time. Never ever want to forget this. Each day I get the opportunity to put all this into action within me. I owe my sponsor, and my Higher Power, and a lot of people in here my gratitude for all I have been given. I need to say thanks for all of this.