Easy does it…but do it! That old statement has been in and out of my mind for a long time, since I came into this program. And it has meant a lot to me. I was such a problem to myself, when I walked through these doors, and I needed to learn to back off and be quiet. But I also had to learn not to sit on my hands. I had things I needed to do.
I was thinking about all of this tonight. We had gone to a wake for a long time sober individual in here, who deserved respect for the work he had done for so many individuals, who needed his attention. Good man. I knew that I especially had to take that respect to his family, whom I have known over a long time in this program and had learned to care for them. They are great examples of this program themselves.
Anyway, the crowd and the individuals there brought a lot of this program back into my mind tonight. Especially learning to not get excited over situations like this. To do what I had learned to do exactly from my old sponsor and those old timers in here. Easy does it. To stop rushing around. To take the time necessary to do the right things. Easy does it.
All of this was so important to my staying sober. I had to learn to do the right thing. Didn’t happen over night. But, like I said, my old sponsor was the one who told me to think with my head and not my heart. It was one thing to be stirred by excitement, but another to learn to stop and take my time to do the right thing. I had to learn to Easy Does It.
But I also had to learn not to get myself tied up in knots and unable to move. I had to learn that I needed to do the right thing. I had to use my judgment and then to move forward in the correct manner. Easy does it…but do it.
Anyway I had to stop and think about this and how my sponsor and those others showed me by their examples, how to live a sober way of life. I had to stop running around like the old drunk I was, and I had to learn to begin to use my judgment by what I learned in here.
To think with my head and not my emotions. And I am grateful for what I learned from my sponsor and those other long termed alcoholics in sobriety.
So, once again I am reminded of just why I am here. I am here to stay sober a day at a time. I need to stop and pay attention to this, my staying sober, and then to get on by doing what it is I need to do. Trying to practice a spiritual way of life and reaching out to others, who need the help an alcoholic like myself has to offer. Freely giving away what was so freely given to me. Makes me grateful. Thanks.