A couple of things I needed to do this morning were readings. The first was the Prayer of St. Francis in the Eleventh Step in the 12&12, and the next was the opening paragraph on the Jan. 6th page in the Twenty Four Hours a Day book. Kind of brought some of what I needed to help me.
Even though I may read these early on, sometimes I find that it might take all day for me to arrive at where I need to be with these. Like at the moment.
I am reminded of hope, love, faith, joy, and light in the St. Francis prayer. Things I know I need to go back and think about each and everyday in this program. Like the thought from Jan. 6 reminds me. I need to be focused on why I am here on a daily basis.
Once again my mind goes back to that first meeting I went to and this was read to me by an old timer. He was the one, who a year later told me, since I couldn’t remember the exact day I came in, that I should make it Jan. 6. How there is nothing in this world more important to me than my sobriety. I really can never forget that. If I do, I am in danger.
I can remember those old timers telling me to stay focused on my staying sober a day at a time, each and everyday in here. I do try to do that. And that’s why some of these prayers, like the Serenity Prayer and the Prayer of St. Francis are so important to me.
I can remember my sponsor and some other old timers in here reminded me to do this each and everyday. I know that one of them told me that I needed to say the Third Step prayer each and everyday. Ever since he did, I have always gone there and began my day with that. And another friend in here has always told us how he says the Serenity Prayer everyday.
All these help me focus on what I need to do. To stay sober each and everyday, one day at a time. It always reminds me of faith, hope, and love. What I need to be practicing each and everyday, when I can. Especially in helping others like myself.
Anyway I am grateful for all I have been given in here. I need to stop and thank my Higher Power and my company of alcoholics, who are sober, who have helped me along the way. All of this is truly beyond my wildest dreams. This new freedom and happiness. The peace and serenity which appears from time to time. The restoration to sanity and the spiritual awakening. All this and more. Thanks.