Again I am reminded of why I am here. I’m here to stay sober a day at a time. I never want to ever forget that. And as the Jan. 6 page in the 24 Hour a Day book reminds me, I cannot even forget that for a minute.
Obviously my mind wanders and I seem to have forgotten. But the minute I become aware of that, I am reminded. I can well remember how I felt, when I surrendered and turned my alcoholism over to my Higher Power. I was filled with hope and became willing to turn everything over to the God of my understanding. And five days later I was introduced to the AA program. I have been here ever since that happened. I never want to drink alcohol again.
Every time I go to a meeting I am reminded of this. And each and every time I get an opportunity to share with the new alcoholic I am filled with gratitude for having my memory renewed. Once more I am reminded that I never want to forget why I am here.
And one of those gifts I was given in here was this new way of life, which has filled me with a new happiness. I have been restored to sanity. I have had a spiritual awakening. I was given a new freedom and a new happiness. I was given hope, faith, and love. At one point in my life, alcohol stole all my friends. Now I have been given, not just a new way of life, but all these new friends. I have grown in love with all of them. I found I’m focused on caring and desiring they be able to live a better way of life. This is what I hope I can do for each and everyone, to help them along the way. To think and be aware and pray for them.
Anyway, I just needed to stop and think about all of this. To once again remind myself of why I am here. I’m here to stay sober a day at a time. I am so grateful for all I have been given, beginning with sobriety itself. Amazing. A miracle. A new way of life, a new way of actually living. Free of what was ruining my life and that of others. The God of my understanding took alcohol away from me. That’s breathtaking, when I stop and think about it. I owe Him so much. And I owe all those in here, who have so freely given to me. And I need to repay as much as I can by freely giving to others. Thanks.