Every once in a while I am reminded of things which once were awful relationships. I know that, when I came in here to get and stay sober, I had to deal with broken friendships and bad relationships at work and elsewhere.
I was given the information I needed, which helped me to change over time in here, which helped me to begin to face the truth, and begin to remake broken friendships and to heal feelings with many I never could before. All of this was the result of the help I got from my old sponsor and a lot of old timers in here. And, of course, the fresh start of the spiritual life and my relationship with my Higher Power.
Overtime my thinking changed. I could see where I was the most responsible for bad relationships. A lot of times I never knew that until I ran into problems, which I had to learn how to step back and change them. I had to learn how to let go and begin to grow in the positive and let go of the negative, which had controlled and governed my “relationships”.
Time took time. Not a day, a week, a month, and even years. But I was getting the help I needed, which makes me so grateful. I learned how to let go and begin to grow in the humility I desperately needed. To step back and learn how to be quiet. And even when I was criticized I had to be silent and grow along in peace I always needed.
Anyway we were talking about the Serenity Prayer in the meeting today which helped most of us to continue to learn that we are not in control of others. I cannot change them. In fact I can only change myself, and I need to learn how to do that. I need the help of my Higher Power, and others in here, who did, and still can, help me to learn how to change myself for the better.
Made me grateful to my Higher Power, this program, and all those, like my old sponsor and his wife, and so many others in here, who are still available, when I need them.
My thanks.