Today I went back and read a few things I wrote over ten years ago. Amazing. All because I hadn’t really thought about these lately. It reminded me of a number of things I had apparently left back then.
One of those was silent meditation. I know I have thought about that on and off, but practice it? No. So today I did. Time takes time, but it was done. Total silence. Very still, quiet contemplation.
No thoughts at all. It reminded me of a thought I wrote back then. I remarked on something I said to a sober old timer, who was in World War II. I told him I had been thinking…and he replied, “That’s your problem.” And I said he was right. And, if he had been here today, he would have said the same thing, and still would have been right.
So I stopped, and began to turn my will over and quiet my mind. And plunged down into total silence within. And stayed there for an immeasurable amount of time. I did not know. And it was peaceful. No thoughts, no words, nothing.
Anyway I thought I’d put this down, because I know it’s what was so helpful to Dr. Carl Jung, back practicing in Switzerland, and who helped the young man from New York, who had a spiritual awakening, as the result of what Jung pointed out to him he needed. He came back to our state and he told a friend of his what he had done, and that man came and told Bill W. what he had learned, and Bill went to Dr. Bob…and it was the beginning of AA. And Bill later wrote to Dr. Jung, before he died, and thanked him for helping to found AA.
Anyway I had to stop and think about this, because how important all of this was for all of us in this program. At least my “thoughts”. Makes me grateful to my Higher Power, and all those old timers, who helped me, and the rest of men and women in here, who have been so helpful to me. Thank you all.