The Sixth Step chapter in the 12&12 was our meeting today. A lot of stuff came out from almost everyone in the room. Opened up the meaning of our being hooked into a lot of troubling things in our lives…until the end of our lives.
That was a lot of what came out of many members today. I know what my old sponsor and a lot of old timers, plus the literature told us. That is we are not saints. We are human alcoholics, who will be this way until we die. I can always remember what I was told. I will stumble, tumble, and bumble my whole life.
Like it was said, we are human alcoholics. We can all begin our day with prayer and meditation, but, as the day goes on, we often can find ourselves often falling into our past. And we have to learn how to stop and pray and ask our Higher Power for help, along with often talking to others in here, who can help us up and back on the road to our sobriety.
Some confessed guilt and negative feelings with this. I know at one time I fell into these feelings. But, with the help of those old timers, especially my sponsor and his widow, I was brought in from the negative to the positive.
In fact as time went on, I found myself growing into the reality of living a positive and not a negative way of life. It has helped me to continue to grow along spiritual lines.
It also has shown me how to be able to live in a positive sober way of life. Again, it was through the help of those old timers, which led me along the way. I know I can ask for help from my Higher Power, because I have come to believe that He knows what I often don’t. I know I have been asked from others like myself, who stumble, bumble, and tumble, as we all do from time to time, to help them. And, like my old sponsor and so many others, I do.
I know that I have been able to grow along spiritual lines, and that has cut down the size and impact of my trip ups.
But still human, of course. I know, from time to time, I have to ask for help, and that’s what I have learned in this program. And, I have to thank my Higher Power, and a lot of alcoholics, just like myself, to help me to do the right thing. Of course I owe those old timers, and a lot of people like myself today, the thanks for their help. Makes me back off with humility and gratitude for being a human sober alcoholic.