I was reminded today of a lot of things I was given over time. My old sponsor was one, who was aware of my being run over with my growing bored. That’s when he stopped me and told me I needed to start again to put this program into action. He got me roles in here, a long time ago, where I became secretary, treasurer, coffee maker, and taking on roles in Twelfth Step work. Made me to recall a lot of good things, which helped me to continue to put this program into action in my life.
That didn’t mean that this is what I was doing everyday. No, the thing was that it made me develop a change in my interior feelings and my goals in here. The bottom line was that it increased my desire to stay sober one day at a time.
I know that I also learned that I had to be able to depend on my Higher Power and to continue to live a spiritual life. And that also made me aware of what the BB and my sponsor and those old timers told me…that I was not a saint. I was just a sober alcoholic. I was to pray, be faithful to my Higher Power, and not to drift off into the future, or the past. But to stay right here where I am today.
And yet there were and are times when I find myself not staying where I should. My mind drifts off and I find myself bumbling, stumbling, and tumbling, and had to learn to pick myself up, dust myself off, ask my Higher Power for help, and talk to other members. But to stop and get myself back on my feet and concentrate on my staying sober a day at a time.
Anyway it reminds me of the gratitude I owe my Higher Power, this program, my old sponsor and those old timers, and a lot of others in here. I love my staying sober, and the way this program has given me a very good way of living. Never want to forget this.