Today, at the meeting which we attended, I was struck by something, which has helped me to practice since I came in. We were talking about the Steps, which I have done over time in here, but two Steps I continue to do each and every day…Step One and Two.
What has helped me right back near when I came in were these two Steps. Every morning I think about my first doing the Step, which surrendered me to my Higher Power, to take away my drinking alcohol. And then that Step, which my sponsor opened the door to my being able to turn my life and my will and obedience over to…the Second Step.
Over time in here I have worked all of these Steps. Often again and again. But Steps One and Two always begin my day. It helps me to stay focused on why I am here and what it is I need to do to continue to remain sober a day at a time.
On and off, over time, I will find myself going back to these over and over, again and again. It keeps me in place, which I believe I need to do. It has helped me through all these years to remain faithful to this program. I’m not talking about thinking that I am a successful member of this program. In fact I never have that feeling. But it is a reminder to me of why I am here and what it is I need to do.
And what that is is to help others like myself, who want to get sober and stay sober. Over time I try to remind them what it is that has helped me along the way. That’s what has continued to remind me of why I am here. To stop my drinking alcohol and to grow along spiritual lines. At least to remind me, while I’m trying to change my life, to make me willing to continue to do what I need to do.
Anyway I am glad that I think this way. Makes me grateful to my Higher Power, this program, and the people in it, who have helped me to stay sober and grow as best as I can. I have been able to continue to watch others, who have been sober a day at a time over very many years, as well as those, who continue to try to follow them and to change and stay sober like they do. Like I am helping myself to do the same thing.