Today we had a great meeting, talking about Step Nine in the 12&12. It was very interesting. It made myself and a few others willing to share making amends for all of us.
I know that I was drawn in, despite a lot of things which happened were “lost”. I this meant that some of the thoughts from the past were gone, at least for now. So, I did remember a couple of these, and when I was called on, I shared them with the group.
One of them caused me to go back to my sponsor and complain, because the person I was trying to make amends to never stopped talking and really kicked me off the phone. He never wanted to talk to me again. I told my old sponsor since I was crushed. He told me to stop and let go. He said I had done what was right and was not responsible for what my old employer did. Then he told me to pick up the phone and call someone else and make an amend right away. I did and felt relieved.
There were others and I spoke about them and was able to let go and feel that I had shared and hoped I had helped the people in here to continue to want to do the same.
I know this was a great reminder to me for what I had done, which was what the Step was about. Like I said, some others in here did the same kind of relating, which I think was helpful.
So, I’ll step back and let go. What it did for me was to make me grateful for what these Steps do for us. I know I knew I had done the right things. It gave me peace of mind and heart.
Anyway I talked to a few after the meeting and it seemed they appreciated what we had done for them. It makes me grateful to my Higher Power, my old sponsor and others in here, who had helped me along the way, to do what we need to do. d