There were two topics brought up in our AA meeting today…gratitude and satisfaction. Both were definitely accepted for most. It was a very well crowded meeting, so the last person was the one who definitely able to clear the meeting.
It was a mostly acceptable group responding to these subjects. But there were a number, who for personal reasons admitted struggles with these subjects. For my thoughts about these I could understand, as some did, but also knew that there was need to accept help from their sponsors.
I well remembered how, back when I came in, I also had to undergo these struggles, to come to understand how I needed to change my thinking and reasoning. Not easy. I remembered very well the upsets I went through. But back then there were many sober alcoholics, who knew how to help me change. Either change or end up back out drinking alcohol again.
Part of our problems I came to understand were the negative emotions, which ran my thoughts out there drinking alcohol. They were in control for many years. I came into this program, leaving drinking alcohol, but still under the control these emotions, which were very damaging.
However the help I was given, though it took a lot of time, began to change me. And that was what gave me a lot of gratitude. I spoke to a few about this and hopefully they would talk to their sponsors and ask for the help they need.
Anyway, it was a pretty acceptable program for us being able to stay sober a day at a time. All of this made me very grateful for what we all were given. I know I owe a lot to those in here, who have helped me to change and grow in here. I am grateful to my Higher Power and my old sponsor and all those, who reached out and helped me.