At first it was the old timers who would yell out and tell me to shut up. At first I didn’t recognize what they meant, but after a while I got my second old sponsor, who woke me up to what was wrong with me, besides my being an alcoholic.
He was the one who told me that I was suffering from negative emotions, which ran my thinking while I was drinking. And after I got sober, I came in without alcohol, but I was being run by my old negative emotions, which were still running my life. I had to change from that and become humble and positive, not negative.
I owe so much gratitude to my Higher Power, my old sponsor, and his widow, old timers of all sorts back then, and then all those who have continued to help me as I go on. Hopefully I now can help others, to continue to change, and also to get sober.