Today was the beginning of my sobriety back years ago. It”s still alive. Amazing. Although I am doing what so many of us must do, stay sober a day at a time. Not to go into the future or back into the past. Yet today is the anniversary for my sobriety. It’s my 45th.
I don’t get into these dates for most of the year, yet I do feel the blessing as time draws near. I owe my Higher Power so much gratitude for my getting and being sober. I have never drank since I got sober. The grace of my Higher Power has kept me in this program and hopefully doing what I need to do. For me, it is so special…and I’m sure that’s true for all of us, who continue to stay sober.
My old sponsor, Tom, and his sweet wife Fern, helped me to change from the drunk I was into a very concentrated sober alcoholic. I always remember him telling me that I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I knew. That woke me up and opened the door to the Second Step, introducing me to the spiritual way of life, and helped establish a relationship with my Higher Power.
Since then I have gone through so much in here, which helped me to grow and get rid of so much of my problems. Especially the negative emotions, which ran my mind all those years I was heavily drinking. I was shown what I needed to do to change. And thankfully I seem to be able to keep on changing and moving into a positive way of thinking and living, both practically and spiritually.
Anyway I need to be able to continue to grow a day at a time. To live spiritually and to work this program the way I have been shown. And I have to be grateful for all the help I have been given by all those in here, both the old timers and those I am with today. I do this by being able to freely give what I was so freely given, to people in here, who need care, and to open the door for those, who are trying to come into this program. Thanks.