On Friday I received my chip for my time in this program. I was glad that I did, but I didn’t respond to being asked to speak. I just said “Thank you” to the group. It was all I needed to do.
However I was very pleased, even I was really thinking about staying sober one day at a time. I think that’s why I backed off. I knew that others would say what it needed to to help the new members. At least I hoped they would. And they did.
But through it all, I still had to think what I needed to do to continue to live this way of life…sober. As so often my mind will remind me that I’m always here for just today. I’m not here to think about the future, nor the past. As my old sponsor would always remind me.
I did think about helping others, but like I said, I hoped that the rest of the group would do that. I just didn’t want to speak because I knew that could drag me down, and I didn’t want to go there.
Anyway, regardless, I was very happy. I was grateful to my Higher Power, and a lot of those old timers, who helped me to stay sober and grow along spiritual lines.