God could and would if He was sought. Having asked for sobriety, I got it.
Anyway, I ordinarily don’t spend a lot of time analyzing my thoughts about God. Generally, I try to leave this to the theologians. But something happened today at out meeting. Someone raised the subject of how did they know if they loved God. Hmm. Right away my mind went to one word. “Doing”.
When it comes to love, I think of it as an action word. The movies, music, and all that we’re exposed to in life, try to illustrate love to us as a feeling or emotion. Sounds good at that moment, but in practicality feelings and emotions are transitory at best. It’s like chewing gum. Once the flavor runs out we have to get a new stick.
God gave me, at least I believe, my sobriety. That was a life changing experience. Sober at last. I was free of the chains which had imprisoned me for so many years. How could I ever repay Him for this? Well, this is what the program is all about for me. By working the steps and living this program on a daily basis is the best way I know of how to do this. It’s what am I willing to do? Not how I feel about it. Am I willing to show up each day for my sobriety?
Love takes work. Am I willing to carry this message I was so freely given to another alcoholic? Everyday? The answer is yes, even when I don’t feel like it. It’s not dependent on anything else other than returning “thanks” each day for the greatest gift anyone ever gave to me; my sobriety.
God’s love for me and my returning this love for Him is in the steps. It’s the program.
Anyway, I just had to sit down and think about this today.