We talked about fear today and its effects on some alcoholics at times in here. How fear can take us back out, if we don’t talk to a sponsor and face and deal with whatever it is.
Most everyone in the room could identify with fear, when we came into the program, after we had stopped drinking. I could definitely remember that myself. I had an awful lot of fears for a long time.
I can remember one dark fear after I had been around a long time in here. I couldn’t talk about it, but it was beginning to weigh me down. What was it? It was the fear of death. I had never had this before, but here it was now. So, I finally told it to one of my old timers, who was working with my sponsor.
He opened the door to my Higher Power and had me turn it over. He demonstrated how it had worked for him, so I followed his directions. It was a way for me to leave it in the hands of my Higher Power and walk out of the room. I did and it worked. But it also taught me how to begin to use my Higher Power to change, when it came to negative emotions.
I had come into this program so that I could be free from having to go back to alcohol. I never wanted to ever drink again. So this way of dealing with things, which could trip me up and bring me back to alcohol, had to be dealt with. And it made me willing to do what was necessary. And I followed my sponsor’s directions and that of those who worked with me. And it worked for me.
I am grateful for what my Higher Power has done for me in here to help me stay sober. I’m also grateful for those, who have given me the directions I have needed and how they have helped me to rid myself some of the power these negative emotions had over me in the past. It’s the answer of this spiritual program.
After the meeting, I had to take the time to sit down and go back and remember how this program has given me the freedom and the happiness I need to stay sober a day at a time.