Once again I was caught up in working with others. It always amazes me, when this happens. One was a new person at our meeting today. And then there were others later on, whom I talked to and who called me. And then there was the continuation of a Tenth Step from yesterday, where I was made to practice the spiritual axiom, whenever we’re disturbed there is something wrong with us. That was me and hopefully I did the right thing, when I found out.
However I am still grateful for the opportunities I am given to reach out and pass the program message on to a new person. I take this very seriously, because it might be the only time I will have the opportunity to do this. How often memory comes back to me that what I was freely given I can now freely give to others. Perhaps this could be the time to do something, which could be an expression of gratitude to my Higher Power, who has continued to help me stay sober a day at a time.
And then to talk to those, who have problems, which we all have, while trying to stay sober. The human part of this disease. Like the BB tells us, we are not saints. And, as my old sponsor pointed out to me, along the way I will probably stumble, bumble, and trip. I need to pick myself up and dust myself off and keep on keeping on. And he was right.
I definitely had a long talk with a struggling person in the program, It reminded me not only of the Tenth Step, but also something an old timer used to tell us over and over again. How important it is for people like us to change our attitudes from negative to positive. I never ever want to forget that and I passed it on. It’s part of what so often frees me of those negative emotions. Those awful character defects. I learn to laugh at myself and stay focused on living a sober life a day at a time.
And then I was once again reminded of that old timer I had so often listened to, as did an awful lot of alcoholics in recovery in this country. He had passed away just recently. He was so important to so many of us. He will be missed, but remembered by me. Makes me grateful to have known him.
Finally, for now, I need to stop and step back and know how grateful I really am for all I have been given in here. My sobriety and this way of life, which changed me. Can’t forget that and need to stop and just think about that.