I was talking to an “old timer” today, whom I had met years ago in here, and they told me about a meeting, where they were talking about the chapter in the BB, The Family Afterwards. Interesting conversation.
What we were really talking about was the concepts of the Serenity Prayer. It reminded me of so much I need to pay attention to. I never want to ever drink again, and I have to keep in mind what it is I’m unable to do and not attempt to be in control. When I stop to look at the world around me, as we spoke about, I know that I’m not able to change anyone or anything.
I know that when I was out there drinking I thought I was in control. And, of course, looking back, all of that was just junk. I really found that out after I came into this program. Through my old sponsor and those old timers I learned the hard way. I discovered all I could really ever change is myself. And it was that Second Step, which opened the door to that. My coming to believe in and have faith in my Higher Power.
Anyway it was so encouraging to talk and listen to someone around the time I came in. We both hopefully will be able to link up and celebrate their anniversary together. A reminder to me, and both of us, what my old sponsor and his widow would relate to the two of us, that we need to focus a day at a time to stay sober. And to remind ourselves that we’re the only one who can stay away from alcohol for ourselves. His widow told both of us that we’re to be number one in our lives, so that we can stay focused.
I was grateful that we had that chance to talk to each other and share our programs and our thoughts. I know we both were reminded of how much we owe to, not only our Higher Power, but my sponsor and his widow, and all those old timers. We both expressed our gratitude for all of this.