Not to long ago I ran across a prayer by a very deeply spiritual man, who stated that he didn’t know himself. I remember, when he said that, I identified with him. Like the BB tells me, I’m not a saint. I’m a human being.
Following that, I was reading another deeply spiritual man. One of his thoughts opened the door for me. He defined why we think and act the way we do. I had to go back and reread that thought until it hit me that what he was saying was true. It was pretty much how we could stop our negative emotions from taking us over. This last thought was what has taken many of us back to drinking again and dying.
I won’t go into his thoughts at this moment, but I will go back to enough of what it is that gets us drunk again. I have seen this through my time in here, over and over again. And the results of dying an alcoholic death. It has been a wake up call from the very beginning in here.
I never want to drink alcohol ever again. I know that in order to do that I have to put this program into action in my life. That’s why every time I go back and think about what it was that opened me up to this program it was the Second Step. I always think about my gratitude for my old sponsor, who introduced me to this Step. It was the start of the spiritual life in here for me. That’s where I came to believe in my Higher Power.
And it’s my hope and faith in my Higher Power, which has kept me sober a day at a time. And once again I have to stop and think about the gratitude I owe to my Higher Power and all those old timers, who have helped me to not only put this program into action, but how it has changed me for the better. I have received peace of mind and often serenity. A new freedom and a new happiness. A spiritual awakening and a restoration to sanity. I need to stop and say thanks by acting it out with others. To freely give what was freely given to me.