Talking to a few people today, it was about anger. We all agreed how dangerous anger can be and the need we have for harnessing it. I know for a fact the one thing I had to do after I got sober was to take the time to go to my sponsor or another sober alcoholic and let them know what was going on.
Over time in here, like so many others I have known, I had to learn to get rid of this heavy negative emotion. I definitely had to learn not to just share it with others, I learned I must go and apply that Tenth Step to such a heavy weight. To make the spiritual axiom, whenever we’re disturbed the problem is ours. Not that of someone else. Mine.
Part of what I learned as a result was that often what I felt about someone else didn’t really apply to them. It was my fault and the thing I needed to do was accept the problem as my own. It’s not my business to be taking the inventory of someone else. I needed to learn to forgive and forget.
Anyway we all agreed we were pretty much the same, when it came to this defect of ours. Our loss of temper. Hopefully, we mostly agreed, that prayer and sharing was probably the beginning of the solution. Working with others and letting go of our defects became part of what helps us.
Anyway it was a definite reminder of why I am here. To stay sober a day at time. I know I need to change, but I also know that I can go no further than where I am now. The past is over the future is beyond me. And I need to take care of what’s bothering me right now. What my old sponsor used to tell me, “Let go and let God”.