One of the things, which touched me, was my need to remember why I’m here. I was reminded of this, while a good friend of mine in here, was driving and talking. We talked about this program and it’s growth and impact on our lives.
Both of us remembered our arrival in this program. In fact we both had much of the same thing, which helped us come into this program. Neither of us knew anything about alcoholism back then. Nor did we know anything about AA. What blocked me was the time. I came in, when this program, was still “new”. I can remember that there weren’t that many meetings down in Wash. DC and that area. And some ten years later there was a seemingly sudden burst and there were meetings all over the place. Amazing.
Why this was so interesting was that we joined a few more like ourselves and the talk continued down this road, so to speak. And why it was so interesting to me was that I can often get into these talks and find myself reminded of why I am here to start with.
I’m here to stay sober a day at a time. A lot of interesting things happened on the way to where I’m at today. But the goal I was given by my sponsor and this program was just that. My staying sober for just one day at a time. Not a week, nor month, and definitely not a year.
I learned that the hard way. That’s because, when I came in here, I was all determined to stay sober the rest of my life. Fortunately for me I was hit in my mind by my sponsor and a lot of those old timers. I think I thought I knew what I was doing and didn’t think I needed to know what others knew. And then I was told that I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did. And for some reason it made sense to me.
Every time I get to this point in my thoughts, I find that I get filled with gratitude. How much I owe my Higher Power, this program, and all the people in it. Particularly those, who reached out to me and helped me change. I was a real mess, when I came in. Immature, insecure, and over sensitive, as it was pointed out to me. Like I can always say, I am truly grateful. I need to say thanks over and over again.