Talking to a couple of people reminded me of some things I had to learn in here, which is helpful in staying sober…a day at a time, of course. I’m grateful for the spiritual way of life, which is so much a basis for this.
The first thing, not just the two people, but so many others, which plays a big role in living a definitely peaceful life. A definitely happy life. And that’s staying in the present and not drifting off mentally into the future.
I learned that from my sponsor and those old timers. I used to suffer from anxiety and depression, even resentments, when I would find myself not staying in the moment. I would have thoughts about my “plans”, which brought fear and a lot of rough emotions, because, I later learned, that these were based on what happened in the past. Fortunately I had already begun to learn that I needed to share these thoughts and feelings with others, who helped me get back into place where I was standing or sitting at the moment.
I still can wander off, if I’m not focused on where I’m at. And I do know that I will probably continue to stumble and bumble because I am human and not a saint. However I do know what I have to do the minute I find myself out there in the muck and mire of negative emotions. I have to pick myself up and dust myself off and start my day over.
I was ready to go down into another thought, but I’ll put it off until another day. It’s enough for all of us to look at what we need to do when I find out that I need to stay in the present. Like my sponsor used to tell me, look at where your feet are.
And it’s avoidance of negative emotions we all need. The worst thing, which can happen to us, if we are wandering down the road into the future. And that’s drinking again. I’ve seen it happen. And I don’t want to ever drink again. I do know however that these negative emotions can lead to a dry drunk. Been there a few times in the past.
Like I said, the most important thing in my life is staying sober. And this means I have to learn and depend on my Higher Power and those around me in this program to help me stay in the right frame of mind. We used to always talk about the “I” over “E” in the past. Intellect over Emotions. Negative. With the help of my Higher Power and others I have been better off over time.
Once again I have to express my gratitude for all the help I have been given in here from my Higher Power and everyone else. Worth praying, meditating, and sharing with others.