That spiritual axiom in the Tenth Step, whenever I’m disturbed there is something wrong with me, has done a lot to help change me. For one thing it keeps others out of being targets of mine. It simply puts the weight on me and frees me of having to have resentments against others, which at one time was always where I went.
Anger and resentments I know from my past were what tore me down. I never really was able to see how it wasn’t tearing others down. I kept getting buried in myself with hatred and anger. Now that I’m able to see what it was that was running my life, I should say “ruining” my life, I can at least take care of me. In fact I can see how it destroyed the lives of some alcoholics. It drove them back to drinking and death. That’s not where I want to go.
What it truly has done for me is to give me the peace I need. It has helped me to forgive others, who very often aren’t guilty of what I was throwing at them. How so often I projected my negative emotions on them, when they aren’t really involved in what I used to aim at them.
And this is where a day at a time began to make sense in my life. I can’t really live tomorrow in today. In the past I never even thought of that.
Anyway, I had to learn that I’m here to stay sober today. Each and every day. I owe my sponsor and those old timers so much gratitude. And I need to look at what my Higher Power has done for me and given me. This program has helped to change my whole life. I’ve been blessed by everything in here and need to say thanks.