It’s funny, when I think about it. But one of those things, which is always in my life, is something I rarely go into in public. Yet it’s always there. For instance I say it in my prayers almost everyday. Acceptance. God grant me the serenity to accept those things I cannot not change. And what’s that? Almost everything.
When I stop and think about this it changes me. All of a sudden I have to go back to the Second Step. I mean I had already done the First Step even before I knew anything about it. Before I had even heard of this program. Before I even knew anything about alcoholism. All I knew is that alcohol was killing me. I was ready to end my life, when someone opened me up and gave me hope.
Here I was, where alcohol owned me. And that hope made me do something I hadn’t done in years. I prayed. I begged the God of my understanding to help me stop drinking and to help me change my way of life. I fell asleep that night and woke up the next day. Alcohol was gone. I can never forget that. Five days later I came into this program. I had changed.
That’s what I have to think about. With the help of my Higher Power I can change. I may not be able to change the world around me, or the people in it. But with the help of my Higher Power and the people in this program I can now change.
The result of all this is that I am able to stay sober a day at a time. Talk about a miracle. It’s this. I never want to forget. And because of all that’s happened as a result of coming here and doing what I learned in here. I can stay sober and grow along spiritual lines. And that was never here before I surrendered to that First Step. And then my old sponsor introduced me to the Second Step and that changed everything. And here I am, able to accept what I could never accept before.
Anyway today I had to stop and think about this. I am truly grateful and want to thank my Higher Power, my old sponsor, those old timers, all the people I have met in here, and the program itself. Thanks to all.