One of the most important things in my life is this day. Not yesterday or tomorrow. Right now. I was told by my sponsor, his widow later on, and a few of those old timers, and some friends of mine in this program. We talked on what might happen to us, if we were to go ahead to a holiday down the road, like Christmas and what it can do to us, if we get wrapped up in that day.
The reason I was reminded of this day was what was going on in the minds of many around us. And the reason I found this to be the wrong way to go is what has happened to some, who forgot that today is the day I need to stay sober. Some probably could get so wrapped up in this that they might just lose why they are here. And it’s possible that it could not only spoil their time in here and might take them down the road to a drink.
Anyway what went on in my mind and my discussion with a few in here was our need to talk to and listen to a sponsor. I was given a lot. And I know that those I talked to had the same experiences. Especially I was reminded of the I over E. Intellect over emotions. That this kind of forecasting in our minds can bring on negative emotions. Worry, anxiety, anger, and even some resentments. Not good.
I know that back then I was shown how I had to change and deal with the I over E. I was told to think with my head and not my heart. That meant that I had to begin to practice to change my mind and ask for help from my Higher Power. And I found it did work for me. I began to have the experience of doing away with these things, which could drag me down and put me at risk of my sobriety. I never want to go there.
However I have to remember that no matter what, I’m still a human being, an alcoholic, who can find myself drifting off and stumbling, and fumbling, and bumbling. Like the BB tells me, I’m not a saint. And as my sponsor and others showed me that my stumbling will come again and again for the rest of my life. And that’s where I need to stop and ask for help and to stay sober and keep on keeping on, a day at a time.
Anyway I know that I’m hopefully committed to staying sober a day at a time. I need to do what the Ninth Step tells us. The spiritual life is not a theory. We have to live it. And I need to thank this program, my sponsor, my Higher Power, and my sober friends in here.