Stay sober. That was pretty much the message at the meeting today. We were having a “chip meeting”. A celebration of some individuals anniversary. Listened to quite few alcoholics, who obviously were truly living this program. Nice.
I think those of us, who have desired to continue to stay sober, benefit from listening to those like us, who continue to stay sober a day at a time. People, who have grown along spiritual lines, and working this program. I know that I benefit from meetings like these. I know I love to hear others, who often remind me of myself. Who have surrendered to that First Step. Accepting their alcoholism and turning it over to their Higher Power.
A reminder to me of why I am here and what it is I need to be doing on a daily basis. I can well recall what that last day of my drinking was like. Heard a lot of reminders today. I mean there I was in total despair and ready to kill myself. I couldn’t go any further drinking alcohol. Alcohol owned me and there was no hope. Fortunately for me I was given hope that last day, which made me pray, which freed me from alcohol. I never ever want to forget that.
Back, when I came in, I met a whole lot of old timers, some of whom were early members of the program. They were very tough to say the least. They woke me up and showed me how I would be able to stay sober a day at a time. I was introduced to the BB and the Steps. I was told to keep my mouth shut and listen to how this program worked. I was also introduced to what was really wrong with me. One of these was my ego. The next was my dishonesty.
And in all of this I had to learn that, if I wanted to stay sober, I had to grow along spiritual lines. And that led me to acquiring a Higher Power, the God of my understanding. And that definitely led to opening the door to change within me. Over time I know I have grown differently than what I was, when I came in. It has led me to being grateful for all the changes I have received. What I gave up and what I have grown into in here.
Anyway I am very grateful for all I heard today and how it helped to fill me with what I need. And that’s to stay sober a day at a time. I need to say thanks to my Higher Power, and all those who have helped me to put this program into action.