Often, when I’m glancing back at the BB, I look into several chapters. Today I it was the Third and the Fifth. The doctor, Carl Jung, was talking to the young man, whom he had been treating, who had gone back out and drank again. The young man had asked him if there was any hope for him. Jung told him that he had the mind of a chronic alcoholic and there was no hope.
And, of course in the Fifth, it talks about our minds and how we have to change them and develop some humility and do what we need to do in here, in order to stay sober. And that’s exactly what that young man did, who was under Dr. Jung. He wasn’t in the program, which had not been founded yet. But he followed Jung, and changed and got sober. He had a spiritual awakening.
Of course Dr. Jung through this young man, became what we might call one of our founders. This young man came back to the US and influenced another man, Ebby T. and it was Ebby T., who told Bill W. what he had experienced in the Oxford Movement. And it was a seed well planted. In fact Bill told Dr. Jung how he had helped to begin this program.
But I have always thought about how my mind was changed, after I arrived here. I thought I knew what I was doing in here. However I am grateful for my old sponsor, who helped to change my mind. He helped me to throw out all those old ideas I had dragged in here with me. He woke me up and told me that I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did. But I didn’t know that. And that woke me up.
That’s about when I read that Fourth Chapter, We Agnostics. And that opened the door to this spiritual way of life in here. Not only that, but it introduced me to a Higher Power. Don’t ever want to forget this.
Anyway I am grateful for all I have learned so far. I don’t care how long I have been in this program, I am still learning. I believe like I should I’m not a saint, like it says, and so did my sponsor and those old timers. I’m a human alcoholic. I need to accept what I have been given. And that’s to stay sober a day at a time. The gifts I have received as a result have changed me from the drunk I dragged through these doors to a different person. I am so grateful, it’s hard to imagine. It’s been wonderful. Thanks to my Higher Power and this program. And I owe so much to my old sponsor and those old timers. And also all those, who have helped me along the way.