The truth is that, when it comes to meditation, I try to sit quietly in silence. And when that doesn’t work, then I sit down and write my thoughts. I generally do that anyway. But this evening I stopped and read the Eleventh Step again.
I often go back to that Step, beginning with the Tenth, and then onto the Twelfth. The last Three Steps. I find so much help from these a day at a time. But I know I have been doing this through the inspiration of others in here. And today was a good reminder at the meeting. A reminder to stay sober a day at a time. And also to continue to remind myself of who and what I am, a chronic alcoholic.
I have grown to love this program. All the changes I have been helped to go through in here are the cause within me to be inspired each and every day. I often stop and talk about how my old sponsor was the alcoholic, who was able to direct me into the Fourth Chapter in the BB. The Second Step, which changed my life. The beginning of this spiritual way of life, and then the relationship with a Higher Power. A total change in who I am. Never want to forget that.
Anyway all of this is truly the inspiration I am given to work and deal with others like myself. When these things come up in my life I go back to what I was given in here by those old timers, who not only directed me along the line, but inspired me. I had to think about this over a long time now. My being given the opportunity to share with others like myself. Amazing. That’s because it wakes me up and helps me to step outside of myself and be able to give hope, faith, and love to others, which in the end gives it back to me.
So today, once again, I am being reminded of why I am here. To stay sober this day. That has to be my focus. And all I learned in here is present in so many ways. And this is what makes me so grateful. Grateful to my Higher Power, this program, and all those in here who have reached out and helped me over time. I need to say “Thanks” once again.