I was reminded of this yesterday, because I had written about this before. I was also reminded because of the members speaking yesterday, who were talking about their negative emotions and how they handled them, Not well to say the least, for the most part.
Well, for the first part, I know I brought up a subject given to me by and old member, who served in World War II. He was the one who told us that we needed to have a positive attitude and not a negative one. Took me and others a long time to accomplish this, but it was worth it. And that’s because what the BB tells us, as did out old sponsors. What’s that? That we’re not saints. We’re human alcoholics and are open to stumbling a lot of times.
We can begin our days with prayers, some form of meditation, attending meetings, and trying to help other alcoholics like ourselves, and even practicing Twelfth Step calls. But during the day after these, we can find ourselves tripping and stumbling and bumbling, because we can drift off from time to time, and need to stop and pray, and ask our Higher Power for help. And even take time to talk to others like ourselves. And then to get back into a positive state of mind again. It works, if we work it.
And, oh, the “you” part of that song…I can tell myself it could be my Higher Power, but it’s not, which my old sponsor and others passed onto me. Just a laugh, according to them and others. But, I always need to step back and make sure that I can pray and ask my Higher Power for help. To be open to adopting a positive attitude. To pray and look for peace of mind, and an open heart. To continue to work toward seeking to do my Power’s will and not my own.
Anyway I need to be willing to change again and again. To stay sober one day at a time. And over time I will improve, but I will be human until the day I die, according to the AA literature, as well as my old sponsor. Yet I will improve, nevertheless, if I try to continue to grow and change..