Today at our meeting I was reminded of something said to me, when I came in. It was what my old sponsor said to me, which I have never forgotten. He said, “You don’t know that you don’t know. You only think you know.”
That knocked the wind out of my mind. I knew he was right. I had never ever forgotten that. It just had never gone through my thinking before. I came to realize that because I became aware that my negative thinking, as a result of my drinking alcohol was what was running my mind.
It was then that he helped me to begin the Second Step. It opened the door to the spiritual way of life, and developing a personal relationship with my Higher Power. I never ever want to forget this. It began to change my thinking.
It was this which opened the door to spiritual thinking on a daily basis. It helped to make me to begin to think positive, especially when I was helped to work these Steps into my life. It also opened the door to my starting to feel happiness and hope within me. Then came faith, and eventually love and gratitude.
It was here that I began to feel gratitude to my Higher Power, as well as my old sponsor, and other older members in here. I also began to attend my meetings on a regular daily basis. Listening, and eventually sharing began to increase my positive thinking. I began to grow a more positive attitude over time in here.
All this has taken a very long time in here, as it has for others like myself. I know because I have shared with a large number in public and private. I can always start to realize after a while.
Anyway, the meeting today had an alcoholic, who said they wanted to get sober. And at the end of the meeting they seemed to be thinking they knew what they needed. Reminded me that it was almost what was running my mind, until my old sponsor opened the door to begin to think in the right way. And, like I said, that took a very long time.