Today we had a great meeting in which we talked about the First Step and our gratitude. In general it went well.
One of those problems with the First Step is the second part. The surrender in the first place is generally helpful for all of us. It’s the second part “…that our lives had become unmanageable.” which is so often missing from our memories.
I can remember from my past how many times I got caught up in this. And I wasn’t alone, because friends of mine also got hooked up in this.
But the gratitude I didn’t talk about, as so many others did. And I really am thankful to my Higher Power for all I have been given over time in here. Not only my own concept of the God of my understanding, but all those old timers, who could point out how I had to change and not keep getting caught up in the second part of that First Step, and help me to step back and let go of it.
I know I stumble over this, as did a number of friends in here. But the problem is that it also tripped others up. In fact it can always slip back into our lives, as our not being saints, but human alcoholics points out to us.