I was thinking and reading today in the BB. And what it was all about was how I was able to stop drinking and find the solution I needed. What I was reading were the Second and Third Chapters. And there it was. The spiritual awakening. And the doctors’ opinions on the solution. How encouraging these were.
Looking back I have to say just how amazing this was. I mean, here I was a man, who had all this religious and psychological education, but it was all lost through the fact that alcohol was what was running my life. I never even had a clue. Yet the moment I was going out the door to commit suicide, someone gave me hope, and that was what made me stop and pray for the first time in years. I asked for the God of my understanding to relieve me of the bondage of alcohol and help me to change my life. And it did happen.
Then I read what alcoholics did. Their appealing to a Higher Power for the help they needed and it worked. In fact I know a lot of alcoholics in here, who did the same thing I did and got the same solution. A real miracle.
I always go back and remember what it was that Dr. Jung said in that Second Chapter. He told that young patient of his that he could not help him. That he was probably going to have to be locked up. I always remember what he said to him. That he was a chronic alcoholic, and that he had never seen such an alcoholic recover, who was like he was. I knew when I read this, that I was just like that young man. Hopeless. Chronic to say the least.
And then he opened the door for that young man, telling him that he needed to seek a spiritual experience. A spiritual awakening. And he did. So have other physicians and psychological workers done the same thing. And so do we in here. One way or another we try to encourage the new man or woman suffering from the beating alcohol has done to them, to try to establish a spiritual connection. And it doesn’t mean that they have to have a formal religious conception. Just as long as they are not dependent on their own egos to accomplish this miracle in their lives. In fact, we are not here to tell them our own conceptions of these things. It’s up to each person to have their own individual concepts.
Anyway, I found it encouraging to open my staying sober today. Gave me a lot of hope and a solid belief in terms of this First Step of this program. The only perfect Step. A one hundred percent solution. Based on our surrender. A Spiritual solution. Not a human alcoholic solution, based on our imperfections.
So here I am one more day. Staying sober this day. Not yesterday or tomorrow. Right now. And I am so grateful. I owe so much thanks for the spiritual awakening I was given by my Higher Power. And then this practical program, supported by the spiritual kind of life I hope I am living. All the support those old timers, and all those who have helped me yesterday and today. All this I wake up to each and everyday.