From time to time all of us alcoholics have been upset by what we think is going. It may or not be truthful, but it can pull us down and make us unsettled. And it can also cause some of us to go back out and drink again. And part of that is often times what was often able to run our alcoholic minds, while we were drinking.
I know I went through this out there and the same thing came into this program with me. The overwhelming negative emotions I never knew I had until my old sponsor and those old timers helped me to find out and how to change. Of course these positive changes did not happen overnight. Like they often say in her: “Time takes time.” And they were absolutely right.
Recently I have been talking to a couple of longtime sober men, who are going through their anger, but recognize that, when they stop and think, they are the responsible objects of this anger. I know because I went through much of the same thing. Yet, like myself, they are becoming more clear on what keeps pulling them back into these things. They are now growing very close to their own minds beginning to take over. A lot of stuff they are starting to acquire within themselves, which are close to ending these kinds of thoughts, because of what they have learned.
And what they are acquiring are not just the Steps, but also the spiritual way of life they are beginning to grow much closer to. For instance, we all have the things, which help us step outside of us. We are able to talk to others, who are struggling, either to get sober or need the help to think what it is which will help us grow. We often forget about ourselves and acquire the compassion and love we can give to others in spite of ourselves ordinarily. These were freely given to us, and we can always freely give to others, who need it.
Anyway I know I heard what helped me to go back in my thoughts to when I was the same. Back then I was introduced to the life of spirituality. It opened the door I went through within and began to change, by trying to do my Higher Power’s will for me, and to do what I was being taught by experienced old timers, like my old sponsor. And, like I said, overtime in here I changed.
And hopefully the same is the same for all of us, who want to stay sober. And that’s one day at a time. I was taught not to project my thoughts into the future, but to stay in the now. Projecting my ideas into what I think is supposed to come, can turn me upside down and I know that has led some back to drinking again. My sponsor would ask me where my feet were and that’s where I am at the present moment, and no place else.
I am so grateful to my Higher Power and all those who reached out and helped me in here.