I had to stop today and talk and write something I did a few years back. It was about a song I had learned back many years ago. “I’m going to sit right down and write myself a letter and make believe it came from you…”.
I can remember that I was confused, after I did it, because I could not get who that “you” was. Not anyone person I knew, and certainly not my Higher Power. So I had to think about this back then, and am wondering who “you”, could be.
The thoughts of others are often still a mystery in a way. Someone might tell me something…or write their thoughts and I can assume what they’re saying is true…but is it? It’s not that I might think what is said to me is not true, especially from friends and others. How do I know that? Sometimes I may learn later on that it may not be. But I rarely go there.
In fact I really don’t know what I think is true. I may believe it is. At least I assume it is. But from time to time I discover later on it wasn’t.
How I have learned to handle all of this is not to pay complete attention even to myself. I have been able to have beliefs based on my time in here and to also have a sense of humor. This way of life in the program has taught me what I need. I can see what it means to me, my sobriety and my spiritual way of life keeps me on track. Other things along the way I can handle and not get upset if it’s off base.
Living this spiritual way of life, along with the sobriety I have been living, helps me to continually be at peace and serenity. I can stumble from time to time, but have learned to get back to where I belong. To have faith and hope and love, which I have learned in here. Being able to care and help others, when I can, has made me to continue to try to grow along spiritual ways of life. And, of course, to try to continue to help other alcoholics, like myself, and to practice the Twelfth Step, freely giving to others what was so freely given to me. And to be grateful to my Higher Power, and all those in here, who have helped me. Thanks.