Something I went back and read about on this website I had written a lot over time in here. And that was about having to write my thoughts in order to continue to focus on prayer and my Higher Power, and also being able to lead a spiritual life in order to stay sober one day at a time.
And I found myself allowing my mind to wander off and not go there. I wasn’t really getting focused on why I am here, and what I need to do to stay sober by not only doing the program, but to do what I said about practicing the spiritual way of life, through prayers and meditation.
Of course all of this leads to practicing humility. Getting down to at least mentally stepping back, by letting my mind wander off and not paying attention to my primary purpose of stepping back and quietly focusing on what I need…to paying attention on praying and meditating. My long term problem has been my mind drifting and not paying attention.
I woke up to that fact today and finally stopped and decided to do what will definitely help me once again. I know that, when I stop and write my thoughts down, I can pay attention to what I am doing and not drift off. And to do this each and everyday.
One thing I know, which has continued to help me all along, is attending meetings on a regular basis, and talking to individuals on a regular basis.
That keeps me focused on staying sober, but the depths I need have been lost for the most part.
Today, like I said, I was definitely reminded to stop and get back on track. To focus on why I am here, to stay sober a day at a time, and to be of service to my Higher Power, and to remain faithful to following what I have learned from my old sponsor and others, who have helped me. I know one of the gestures I need to practice is what I was freely given by those in here, who knew what to do. They continually Twelve Stepped me to help me to remain sober, and I must do the same for others who need our help.
Anyway I am grateful and need to practice gratitude to my Higher Power and all those who have helped me.