I still hark back to the time I was riding along with a man from Blue Cross on a business call in Arlington, Va. As the man was driving, I looked around and found nothing familiar to me. I asked, “Where are we?” His response was a cool, “Right here.”
As we go along this path laid out for us by our predecesor’s, I sometimes want to ask, “Where are we?” I know what the answer would be: “Right here.” If the man in the car had told me that we were in a specific place, I probably still would have not known where we were. Fortunately he made it simple. We were where we were; right here. The same would hold true, if I got a specific spot. I still would probably be just as ignorant.
Right here, right now. After so many years of walking this path, that’s still the answer. But I’ve wandered off the path and back on so many times, I wonder could I ha! ve been further ahead than I am right now, if I had always been steadfast and aware. I’ll never know, because no matter what the possibilites, the answer would always be the same.
There’s no top nor any bottom. There’s a beginning and an end. But basically it’s always now. Only a drink could change the whole equation. That could only happen if the insanity returned. But then I would not be here. I would be back out there in the madness that was my bottom. I pray not to go there ever again.
That’s what keeps me here; prayer. That and applying the spiritual principles of the steps to my life. All our lives, not just mine. Your thoughts, your words, your prayers keep me where I am. I pray that I return this to all of you.
I always liked what CS Lewis said about prayer. He said that it didn’t change God, but that it changed him.
At any given moment in my day, I’ll always be right here. Am I aware of where I am? Or, in my mind’s eye, am I someplace else? Or think I am. I have to try to stay in the now. It’s the hardest job I have been assigned to. A friend of mine recently related a story about the great football running back, Leroy Kelly. Kelly was once asked how he was able to run the football the way he did so successfully. Kelly replied, “I just follow my feet.” He knew where his feet were. That’s staying aware and in the now. Do I know where my feet are?
Just thinking and trying to stay right here.
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