What should I be thinking about? It’s a lovely fall day and probably the last warm one until Indian Summer and the Spring. No, that’s not it. Football or baseball? All these things are tryng to get into my mind. Again, No. This is the beginning of my day and I have to stop and for a moment, at least, think about God and the program.
That’s what I will try to take into the rest of my day. Like water in a canteen to see myself across the rest of the day, until I get back into the quiet of the end of the day. What kind of water to fill the canteen? I guess what’s called the water of life. And that can only come from those moments I devote to that quiet moment I spend in the presence of the God of my understanding.
When I find myself drying up and getting too involved, I may be able to recall what my primary purpose is and to remember this morning. Try to remember what I cannot do alone.
To remember that God can do for me what I can’t do for myself. To remember that I committed myself to do God’s will this day and remember only he can provide me with the power to carry his will out.
If I can remember that I am dedicated to maintaining my sobriety, maybe the trivial, which appears to loom large will be be reduced to it’s proper size. If I can remember my God and my primary purpose it might just reduce the fears which can try to creep into my mind. If I can remember that I am supposed to practice these principles in all of my affairs I may delay a rush to anger and intolerance.
I need to think about what I was told a long time ago. No matter how I may feel, to just act as if. To take that frown off my face and replace it with a smile. To act as if everything is okay. To act as if I’m sober, even though I might be faltering. And to remember to be grateful for all the blessings I have received. Especially my sobriety. All that I have begins with that thought.
That’s what I have been thinking. The rest can wait until later.