I got a wake up call today. I happened to open the long popular book of meditations “Twenty-Four Hours a Day” and glanced at the page for Dec. 8. Did anyone else look at it? I asked myself. The length of sobriety is not as important as the quality.
I’ve always known that, but the question is do I think about it? Not often enough.
It certainly a legitimate question for someone, such as myself, who has been around this program for years now. I had to take a look back at my performance over the past year, both within and without. Not a pretty picture in my eyes. I still have a lot to learn. My mistakes are evident to me. I can see I have a lot of work still ahead of me. I know it’s a day at at time. I just have to recommit myself to do better each day.
And it’s not just to myself that I have to make this commitment. It certainly is to my higher power, without whom I’d probably be drunk today. It’s also to all those around me for whom I should be an example of what this program is all about; sobriety and sober living.
Like the page said, I’m only one drink away from a drunk. That’s always a good reminder for me and an incentive to try to do better.
Anyway, I’m glad I stopped to look at this book today. I need things like that to keep me aware and on my toes and not on my heels.