Tonight I got another dose of the Twelfth Step and how important it is and why it works. It’s part and parcel of solution to what is wrong with me: Alcoholism.
Tonight I fulfilled a request from another alcoholic to speak at a group anniversary. I had the same feelings I always undergo at such an engagement. An almost out of breath reaction. A kind of stage fright, which last from the beginning to end. At the same time I have this feeling that what I am doing is fulfilling the message of the Fifth Tradition. That the group ought to be a spiritual entity whose primary purpose is to carry the AA message to the alcoholic, who still suffers.
At some point during this process I begin to realize just how this is something very spiritual. Something very much a solution to what is wrong with me. Like the BB tells me that nothing will insure my sobriety than working with another alcoholic. That’s what I know I’m doing. I’m relating my story of what it was like, what happened, and what it’s like today. The same thing I’ve done many times with an individual alcoholic, who is still suffering.
Anyway, when I got home from this event, I had to sit down and write my thoughts. I am so grateful for this opportunity to renew my adventure in this world of sober living and share it with alcoholics like myself. It’s all a part of what keeps me sober.