One thing I know from the past that when I find myself wrapped up in all the thoughts of being too busy, I can find myself confused to a point and exhausted to say the least. That’s what is going on now. My son has come in from Colorado, where he lives for a visit. Unfortunately he is down in another state where his mother and sister live. He wants to come up here to visit my other daughter and myself. And that’s just the beginning.
He has no transportation to come up and that means myself and another person have to drive down to pick him up and bring him back up here. Arranging time and distance, plus the need to see a good friend of mine in that area, whom I’ve missed for a long time. Made arrangements to stay overnight with my friend down there and then pick my son up the next morning and drive back up here. Plus the timing in all of this is something else.
Like I said the pressure, which started the other night, forces me back to where I belong. And that is right here, right now, today. A definite reminder to me of why I am here in the first place. To stay sober one day at a time. To learn and grow along spiritual lines. And to also remember that all of this is a gift I could never have dreamed of in the past. I would never have had this opportunity for instance. I would have been dead by now from my drinking. Not so. My Higher Power saved me. He answered my prayer to stop me from drinking and got me into this program. Instead of pressure I should be filled with gratitude for not only this but all the gifts I have been given, as a result of being sober in this program and living this kind of life I have today. Words cannot really express what I have received in here over time.
All of this give me an opportunity to express my gratitude and to come to peace with myself. It definitely makes me stop and think about what I was told. That I am the number one person in my life. Not an ego builder. It’s not about pride. It’s about my need to consistently remember what it is I am supposed to be doing one day at a time. To remind myself about my need to always remember that my sobriety is always the number one focus of my life. Without it I wouldn’t have a life. And the life I do have is so special and a reward I never earned on my own. It was definitely a wonderful gift. Like my old sponsor reminded me that I am not responsible for my being sober and being in this program. But now that I am I need to remember that I am responsible for my staying sober and putting this program into action in my life.
And just thinking about all of this is enough to do for me what I know I need. And that is the peace of mind which comes to me when I stop and think about my sobriety a day at a time. Makes me grateful to my Higher Power and all those who have supported me throughout all of this. My thanks to all.