Painstaking. I had never been painstaking about anything, but alcohol. Looking back it would seem that I had missed the whole of life. The thought almost stunned me when it came up in the BB. Yet here I was. I had arrived at the Ninth Step and was making amends.
And that’s where the miracles of the program were added to by what occurred next. I was given these Promises. A new freedom and a new happiness. When the past came up I was at peace and I could share it with others, whether new or old. And gradually serenity and peace came into my life. These come from time to time, when I need them. I’m always amazed. Just when I need peace here it comes along with serenity.
All the rest of these promises have come and been around for a long time now, especially that God is doing for me what I can’t do for myself. I have only to stop and think about this to realize the truth of it. Especially my sobriety. I know that without my Higher Power and this program I wouldn’t be here. Talk about miracles. Amazing.
I also am aware that about the same time, in this Ninth Step, the Second Step, the part about being restored to sanity, came true. It happened right after I made one of these amends. And I also believe that the spiritual awakening, which seems to have happened on the first day I was relieved of the possession alcohol had on me, was renewed.
Anyway we were talking about these promises today. Amazing to hear others, who have received the same gifts. I know that when I got home I could not really forget these. I never have. I often find myself thinking about a new freedom and a new happiness. And when I find myself serene and at peace I know this is all a result of these Steps. This program.
No wonder I continue going to meetings and listening to others like myself. It is always a reminder of what those old timers and my sponsor taught me back then. Even when I find myself stumbling over my old faults from time to time, because I’m imperfect, not a saint, I am fairly aware that these promises are right around the corner. All I have to do is to pray and open my heart and mind.
Once again I’m stopping and thinking about why I am here. To stay sober a day at a time. And I’m also thankful for all I have been given by my Higher Power, this program, and all those, who have reached out to me and helped me along the way. Thanks so much.