Everyday is a chance for someone like me to try to live this program as best I can. And that is not always easy for me because I know I’m not supposed to be thinking I know what my Higher Power wants me to do. So I really almost take this a step at a time. Just trying to keep an open mind and go ahead with life.
After all my primary purpose is to stay sober a day at a time. That and trying somehow to live a spiritual way of life. My mind takes me to try to be with someone like myself. Another alcoholic. To go to a meeting and be part of the group and listen and share. Then I hope that I will have an opportunity to talk to others like myself. Maybe someone new or someone coming back. If not then I know there are people who have been around a short time, whom I can hopefully share with. Or not.
All this is because I learned this from watching my old sponsor and what it was that he would always do on a fairly daily basis. And one of the things he would do was to freely share what he had with others like myself. And that’s something I try to keep in my mind. I’m here to do what we’re supposed to practice in this program. And that’s to freely give what it is I have learned in here. Hopefully I can.
The new Twelfth Step is not always possible, because there are so many hospitals and rehabs taking care of the drunk alcoholics. In the old days they would somehow get in touch with our central offices and they’d call people like myself to go out on Twelfth Step calls. It kept us busy and doing what we were supposed to be doing.
All that has changed and I often run into people who come in and are like what my sponsor told me I was like. That I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did.
Thankfully he didn’t stop there. He began to show me how I needed to empty my mind and begin to listen. He also opened the door to this program by introducing me to the Second Step. He allowed me to share with him and then he would share with me. Hopefully I will be able to do what he always did. It helped me stay sober and grow in this program.
Anyway I was thinking about this today. Hopefully I will be able to talk to others and help them and myself to grow along spiritual lines.
It will definitely help me to grow in sobriety. Makes me grateful that I have been given this opportunity. Truly a miracle, as far as I’m concerned.