The spiritual life is not a theory, the BB tells us. We have to live it. Easy done? Good question. Not an easy answer. I know that over time I have had to take a lot of deep breaths and make up my mind, to do the right thing in my life.
However, I have learned in here that time takes time. I know that I have had to change, but the changes in my life do not happen overnight. Nor a week, a month, a year or more.
What my old sponsor told me, that I didn’t know that I didn’t know. I only thought I did, helped to change me. But, like I said, time took time. And, when I learned the truth, I had to learn how to accept it. Often difficult after years of belief in other thoughts, which were not the truth, as I had slowly learned.
What often helped me was a prayer I learned in here I had to say. “Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better serve thee.” How often I have to repeat that, like I did today. I had to say this to remind myself that I am here to serve and help others, even though I can very easily forget what it is I need to do.
Often I have to go back in the AA literature and read how I need to practice deflation of my ego. Over time I have had to practice humility and reach out to help others. To be able, after I have done this, to step back and be quiet. I know I have read that in the last page of the 12&12 in the summary of the 12th Tradition.