What a surprise. Today we were talking about the Eleventh Step at the meeting. Good meeting for someone like me. And others, for sure. However this late afternoon I stopped to think about this and something happened.
I was reading through the BB. I found a story, which was not perfectly me. However it was completely alcoholic. And when this alcoholic hit the same despair I did, we both had suicide in front of us. And then he wrote something I remember from way back, from the book of Psalms: Be still and know that I am God.
At the moment I read that it took my breath away. I was suddenly struck and had to sit in silence, despite the business around me. I had to keep my head down and just be quiet. It made me grateful to be where I was, sober.
It did remind me of the meeting and what I was thinking at the moments the meeting went on. But conscious contact then? No. Yet here I was outside the meeting and here it was. Took me a while to get back in the moment.
Anyway, just wanted to stop and be glad that I was reminded of what I was told so long ago. To be reminded that I am here to stay sober a day at a time. Glad that I have these opportunities to go through moments like this to focus on this program, my Higher Power, the people who have helped me to achieve sobriety and maintain this way of life. I need to say “Thanks”.