I have to be grateful because, despite what was going on in my life, I have been able to still stay sober a day at a time. Still have been able to continue to help others in and out of this program, even though I have been in an area of mental clouds. Struggling to stay connected with the Second Step and my Higher Power.
Fortunately I have been gradually made aware of the bumps in the sober road I’m on. That’s because I have grown aware of the spiritual way of life I’m supposed to live in here, which has been effected by a clumsiness in thinking, which has become a delay in meditation and even some prayers.
When I discovered this, I began reading the 12&12, and then focusing on what it is I need to do, plus talking to some very helpful members in this program, and also doing what I have continued to do, that is attending meetings. And it was the meetings, which were the most helpful. They continued to open the door for me to help people, who need help.
And it was the help which eventually opened the door to help me become aware of what I was tripping over, since my thoughts were in what I was doing, and what I wasn’t.
Anyway, I am very grateful that I have been able to stay sober as long as I have. I need to continue to thank my Higher Power for saving me from the alcohol, which was running my life, and to also thank my old sponsor, and so many old timers, who helped me along the way. And I still have to thank so many others in here, who have continued to help me. I need to say “Thanks”!